What if You Don't Have "Clear Targets?"

Do you ever sit down to chant, and have no idea what to chant for?

What do you do at that point? 

Sometimes my mind is just a jumble of things, and I can't seem to sort anything out. 

These last few weeks have been a whirlwind of activity. My son Aaron Michael Silver became a doctor last weekend. It was non-stop festivities for three days. 
And I leave for California and Arizona (where Aaron will live for the next 4 years) tomorrow. Whew. When I get back to Chicago it's Ben's Memorial Mile on June 11th. You can check out Bensmemorialmile.com to see what we are doing or to contribute to the cause of ending Schizophrenia. 

We have almost 300 people signed up to walk or run so far. That is truly amazing!

These last few weeks I haven't been writing a lot. There have been times I am just amazed that I have been able to get out of bed and put one foot in front of the other. One week I presented to 5 groups about Ben's Memorial Mile, and I stopped sleeping well, and became so, so sad. And even though I'm happy about Aaron beginning his residency, and his new life...it felt like losing him too. 

It was so dark inside my head that I didn't know what to write. But I kept chanting, kept going, and most of all, I kept taking care of myself to the best of my ability...going to my chiropractor, seeing my energy healer, emceeing at my SGI meeting, writing in my journal, going to my therapist, and chanting.

And there have been a few times my mind was so full that I didn't even know where to start. 

So, instead of worrying about having clear targets 
I chanted for:
Peace of Mind
Clarity
To "breathe in" every moment
To see the good in everything
To be my best self
and to realize that I am the Buddha, no matter what, and that somehow...even in my pain I can be the Buddha, and I can get through this tough time.

....and enjoy what there is to enjoy. 

We know the important thing is to keep chanting every day - every morning and evening. As long as we do that we are winning! 

Let's win together! Don't give up no matter what!