"Know you, I salute the air, the ocean and the land,
Every day at sundown for your dear sake my love."
From Walt Whitman's poem "Out of the Rolling Ocean the Crowd"(You can now subscribe by putting your email in the box to the right:)
I'm doing it!
I am blessing most of my possessions
and offering them to people who will love them and appreciate them just like I did,
so I can travel to my next home.
Every morning I am chanting in appreciation that I have become this brave person ready to take on this great adventure of going to live on the beach.
Alone...with all the new friends I am going to make...and all my treasured friends available by technology, including you!
I was meant to live in the beach in the warmth.
It is time to begin my new life.
I'm one of those people that loves hot and humid weather.
I always have. And I adore the ocean/water.
Will I love Florida? I embrace it with an open heart...and we'll take it from there.
Every morning I chant to be where I can be my happiest self and make the biggest difference in the world. I will host a book launch for the book I just wrote with Ben called "Our Forever Ben." It's the poetry he and I have been writing back and forth since last summer. I just put my pen to the paper and write to him, keep my pen on the paper and he writes back to me. Incredible messages. Every time. I am working on this for you. I'll let you know when it's available! I'll publish some excerpts for you, too.
Ben's last two lines of the book are:
"Close your eyes.
I'll still be right here."
Chanting brings such fortune. I'm mostly calm, happy, enjoying every moment of the goodbyes, and staying centered on my Gohonzon...on my life and the depth of my prayer. I'm bringing forth every ounce of power through chanting the name of the Mystic Law of the Universe, Nam-myoho-renge-kyo. I feel it.
Yesterday morning I chanted for 2 hours washing my worries away and feeling great. When I get to St. Pete Beach I plan on having a long daimoku toso on Saturday the 2nd of July, the anniversary of Ben becoming eternal. I am chanting for the state of the world as well. Shoten Zenjin, protective forces of the universe...NOW IS YOUR TIME!
I'm chanting with Daisaku Ikeda's words below in mind:
"Pray that instead of devils or negative,destructive forces infiltrating your being,
Brahma, (Bonten in Japanese),
Shakra, (Taishaku in Japanese)
and the gods of the Sun and the Moon -
~ the positive, protective forces of the universe -
will enter your life!
Pray that they will enter the lives
of all the members in your region
and the entire membership of the SGI, as well.
If you do this,
your strength will multiply a hundredfold, a thousandfold.
With such prayer,
with such faith,
you will realize a fundamental transformation
in the very depths of your life.
This is the secret to achieving your human revolution."
Daisaku Ikeda World Tribune, 9/8/2000
Last Monday I called Tracy right after I gave notice at work. And she said unexpectedly said:
"Wow! I just downsized and sold my 3 bedroom, 2 bath house so I know just what to do to support you. Everything is fresh in my mind. I'm free till after the fourth of July so I can come right over and give you a hand."
And she has taken over the managing of the move in a way that makes me feel the deepest appreciation imaginable. We are laughing, working, enjoying each other's company. She is patiently listening to the stories I tell when I see a picture of Ben, Aaron...my whole life, and listening to my various stories as I sort through all of my possessions and find the "treasures." These I keep, the rest is going.
And when I ask her "Should I keep this thing or give it away?" she answers: "Well...I don't think it will fit in your backpack when you travel around the world." And I think "She does have a point," and bless it on its way.
My goal is to put all I need into my wonderful 2000 Lexus Rx 3000 - my new car I call "Champagne," and drive to St. Pete Beach in Florida (with Tracy, bless her heart) where I am renting a furnished studio overlooking the vast waters of the Gulf of Mexico and every single sunset. Ben and I are going to love this! All I'm taking is will fit inside or on top of my car. I feel like Louise Hay. She left everything behind when she left the east coast to find her incredible fortune and happiness. She inspires us all as the founder of the Hay House Publishing empire. I love you Louise! She's in her 80's saying "EVERY decade of my life is the best decade EVER!"
Did I tell you we raised over $21,000 for Schizophrenia research (less expenses) in the glorious Ben's Memorial Mile? We are still accepting donations at BensMemorialMile.com through the month of July, when we will close out this year's books and begin to work on next year. My personal goal is to have it net $22,000, which is the age he became eternal, and my favorite number since I was born on September 22nd. It looks like we will have it at Downers Grove North High School on June 10th, 2017, but we are waiting for confirmation from the school. I will let you know.
Goodness, I have to go to bed so I can enjoy my last few days here in Chicago making every moment count!