(You can now subscribe to this blog by putting your email address in the box to the right) I am feeling the power of turning Poison into Medicine. I am feeling the surge of energy that comes from having a huge gaping hole in life. Suddenly I am not waking up every day with the constant thought of "How can I save my Ben today?" Because I know I can't save him, at least on earth. What I CAN do is honor him by my thoughts, words, actions, Daimoku and determination. I am a Buddha who "lost" her baby Buddha. From great sorrow can only come great good. That is the way of a practitioner of Nichiren Daishonin's Buddhism. There is no other way. Not for a true disciple of President Ikeda. Because of this I must and will create more value for more people. I am tapping into the vast resources of the universe that are MINE to TAP. And YOURS to TAP. I am following Linda Johnson's guidance to chant to connect with the heart of my partner for kosen rufu and pull him into my life (cool guidance!) ~ but it goes much deeper than that. If I can chant to connect and pull into my life my kosen rufu partner, then it follows that I can connect and with everything in the universe because we are all interconnected. I feel my prayer deepening. When I chant to actualize President Ikeda's dream I know that it IS my dream. It IS our dream to have a world that is free of suffering...to have a world free from the threat of nuclear war...to have a world where people are fueled by their happiness and fulfillment, not fueled by fear and suffering. When I chant like this I feel connected to the entire universe, which I AM, and you are too. We all are. This practice enables us to TAP that power and use it for the good of all. I love what Gene O'Connell shared with me. After I chant to actualize President Ikeda's Dream (MY DREAM), I chant for every member. I chant for everyone reading this blog, and for everyone chanting everywhere to realize their dreams. And of course, I chant for those who are looking for this amazing practice to find it, embrace it and find happiness and fulfillment. And today with a full and grateful heart I thanked my little cherub, my dear sweet boy, for 22 years of happiness in his presence, and for the honor of sharing this journey with him, and for the honor of using the rest of my life to explode with all the warmth, vigor, energy and wisdom to touch as many people possible and help them ignite their passion for living, and live the life they love. Just as I am doing, even though my deepest grief, after my worst possible fear has come true. Thank you Shakyamuni, Nichiren Daishonin, thank you President Makiguchi, Josei Toda, Daisaku Ikeda, and every wonderful Buddhist friend who has encouraged me throughout the years. My heart overflows with appreciation.
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I am so grateful to all of you and all my Gakkai friends. Your words have really touched me. Thank you so much for all your kind words, thoughts and Daimoku. Yesterday I reconnected with my dear friend Gene O'Connell in Marin County. She was my chapter leader when I was a young Buddhist in 1985. She and I worked very close together. I was at the bay Guardian Newspaper in San Francisco and she was raising herself up the ranks in San Francisco General Hospital. She started chanting when she was a struggling young mother. She put herself through nursing school, then got a Master's in Health Care Administration and became the CEO of San Francisco Generall Hospital!. Throughout her career, she would always ask herself "What would President Ikeda do?" Although she is retired she is very active in the Soka Gakkai and was in Japan this spring. Gene is my dear Buddhist friend who was with me as I gave birth to both of my babies. She is like family to me. When I brought Aaron and Ben on Aaron's "Victory Lap" after he graduated from the University of Illinois, Aaron had the chance to meet Gene - just before he started medical school. Yesterday Gene gave me some sound advice. She said they were given three guidelines at the Spring Training Course in Japan. 1. Chant to realize President Ikeda's Dream. 2. Chant for the members. 2. Chant for your desires. I like this. This morning I woke up and read from the July Living Buddhism about President Ikeda's visit to the Tokyo Soka Elementary School. It said "He was happy because he believed that the success of education started with children enjoying school." "In all things, enjoyment gives rise to the desire to challenge oneself and brings forth the energy for achieving success." July Living Buddhism, page 40. YES, President Ikeda's Dream IS MY DREAM! And he has so many more you can read about in Gakkai literature, and that I will share with you. Thank you Gene O'Connell Ben loved the idea of free and happy education. He volunteered at the Sudbury School in Riverside Illinois that was founded by Melissa Bradford. Part of the money from Ben's Memorial Fund is going to Education. And some will go to research on curing Schizophrenia and Mental Illness. You can email me at chantforhappiness.com or write me at 17w702 Butterfield #104, Oakbrook Terrace, IL
Last night Linda Johnson came to give me encouragement regarding the recent death of my 22-year-old son Ben.
My heart is filled with gratitude. Melissa Bradford came to help me remember and absorb the guidance. What fortune I have in my life. Nam-myoho-renge-kyo!
Linda said that even though it's hard to hear, everyone eventually dies. No amount of chanting changes that. After I told her about the last two year of his illness, she said it's clear that I extended his life. This is what Nichiren teaches. In spite of his struggle, through my love, I extended his life.
AND, There's no way he would have died unless he fulfilled his mission. I must chant to see what I must learn, and how to make his life and death meaningful. Only through my Daimoku will I understand.
She said my prayers at this moment (all our prayers) definitely affect his state of life, and how he will be reborn. She said even though schizophrenia took over his life, it is momentary from the perspective of eternal life.
She said to hold on to our beautiful memories. And I insure his victory by winning in my own life. He will always be a part of my life. How can I show value, what can we manifest together?
She said to have a dialogue with his life and to thank him for every single wonderful moment we shared. Fill my heart with appreciation that I had him as long as I did in my life. And from now on I live my life in tribute.
She said doing this will help repair the hole in my heart. What wonderful guidance.
She said Ben is a Buddha in life and a Buddha in death. He is continuing to do shakubuku. He is continuing to encourage people. As Buddhists we can see the positive workings of death. We cannot fathom everything with our intellect, but we can have confidence in our prayer. Everything can be used to create value.
I told her sometimes I feel like running away from the pain and she said this is a natural feeling. How could I NOT feel this way? But the more we run, the stronger the pain gets. Boy, isn't THAT true?
And lastly, when I asked her how to pray to bring my kosen-rufu life partner into my life she said to chant to connect with his life and pull him into mine.
I am having the most delicious dialogues with my own life while chanting Nam-myoho-renge-kyo (I fuse my life with the Mysti Law of Cause and Effect Through Sound Vibration) to the Gohonzon (scroll which represents my own life). "Life, my commitment to kosen-rufu and the happiness of all beings is so strong ~ stronger than ever. How can I make my life matter more than ever? How can I make Ben's life matter, so that no one else has to suffer the way he did, and no families have to go through this ever again? How can I be stronger, stronger than ever, stronger than I have ever been, or ever thought I could be? How can I continue to encourage the noble readers of Chantforhappiness.com who have encouraged me as much as I have encouraged them?"
"When we decide to live each instant fully, with all our might, to live true to ourselves and make the present moment shine, we discover and bring forth immense and unimagined strength"
Daisaku Ikeda, Ikedaquotes.org
PowerPrayer for Inner Strength
and Wisdom
By JamieLeeSilver from Chantforhappiness.com
Life! Now! This is the most important moment of my life. Now is the time to take all I have learned and all the Daimoku I have chanted, and am chanting now ~ to create more value than ever before. Life, let me be wiser, better, smarter and more insightful than ever, so that I can help others unveil their highest and best selves, as they learn to chant the kind of daimoku that will blow their lives wide open with happiness, joy and HOPE! Let me see and choose the best action at every moment! Life, through my thoughts, words and actions may I help others even more than before. And turn poison into medicine now. Now I will take extreme care of myself...love myself...treat myself well...cherishing every moment with family and friends...taking the best, most positive actions...and trusting in my own goodness, intuition and inner guidance more than ever. Nam-myoho-renge-kyo!
by Scott Viau, from the Downers Grove Patch Newspaper 7/15/15
He Lit Up Every Room He Walked Into
“Ben Silver didn’t take his own life,” said Jamie Lee Silver, Ben’s mom. “Mental illness took his life.”
Ben will be remembered for a lot of things. His kindness, compassion, generosity, sense of humor and athletic ability, just to name a few.
More than 700 people came out to Ben’s life celebration this past weekend, where his mother encouraged people to get up and share their stories of him.
“Over and over and over people shared how kind he was and how much he cared,” Silver said. “One young man came up and said he was bullied a lot and Ben always intervened.”
Another person told a story about how he wasn’t a very fast runner. Ben slowed down for him, put his hand out and said, “You can do it. Come on. Come on.” The young man ran faster as a result of Ben’s encouragement.
One of the incoming freshman at Downers Grove North High School when Ben was a senior said he expected Ben not to be very nice and perhaps even full of himself because of his athletic ability.
“But it was just the opposite,” Silver said. “He went out of his way to welcome them to the team. He went out of his way to let them know he was happy they joined this fellowship.”
Ben was a part of the Downers Grove North Cross Country and Track Team, which Jamie likened to being more like a family.
Throughout his athletic career, Ben often received ankle injuries, but he didn’t let that keep him down.
“He would put on a life jacket and go in the pool and run in place in the pool to keep his heart rate up,” Silver said.
According to Silver, a volunteer coach at Downers Grove North who had coached seven Olympic athletes said that none of them had the fire and drive that Ben did.
Ben had received a full-ride college scholarship to University of Miami in Ohio. It wasn’t because he needed it, though. It was because he wanted something to show for all of his hard work.
“He really wanted to earn a college scholarship,” Silver said. “But once he got to college he was injured and wasn’t able to run with the team.”
During his sophomore year in college, it became too much for him to take. His ankle wasn’t getting better and he was struggling with schizophrenia. He eventually lost his scholarship.
About two years ago Ben’s struggle with mental illness began. At the time of his death July 2 at the Naperville Ribfest, Ben was an in-patient resident at Linden Oaks. He was 22 when he died.
But despite the efforts to get Ben help, the mental health system failed him.
“I would go so far to say there is no mental health system in this state whatsoever,” Silver said. “There was no clear path for him to follow to get better.”
Ben had made a previous attempt to end his life and instead of receiving help, he encountered more road blocks.
“No one would take him because they said if he went there and took his life, the state would shut them down,” Silver said. “So if everybody thinks the state is going to shut them down if somebody commits suicide there that means that somebody who has had a suicide attempt has virtually no place to go.”
To combat his illness, Ben went to group therapy, individual therapy and for the most part followed the protocol of what his mental health care providers wanted him to do, but the medicines never really solved the problem.
“Part of the problem with schizophrenia is that even if the medicines do help, they often have so many side effects that people don’t want to stay on them,” Silver said.
During the last few years of Ben’s life, he found it hard to keep up with relationships because of how his illness affected him.
“It made him feel so separate and there were times where he felt like he couldn’t trust anyone,” Silver said. “It’s a symptom of the disease.”
But mental illness isn’t what his mom, family and friends will remember him for. That won’t be the legacy he leaves behind. She’ll remember him for his warmth, love, friendship and smile.
“He lit up every room he walked into,” Silver said.
She’ll also remember him for his sense of humor and impeccable comedic timing.
“I don’t mean he was the class clown, that wasn’t Ben,” Silver said. “But what he was was humorous and warm.”
And he cared. He wanted people to be happy.
“He didn’t take his relationships lightly,” Silver said. “He really wanted to make a difference in peoples’ lives.”
If his life celebration is used to judge that, he certainly did. Silver said people talked about Ben and what they knew, loved and liked about him for close to three hours.
“So many people wanted to come up and talk about the difference he made in their lives,” Silver said. “It was really, really profoundly beautiful.”
Ben was a lifelong Buddhist. He was born into the practice. Silver said chanting with him was like running a race.
“He’d get so much energy and he’d chant so fast,” Silver said. “He did everything with intensity.”
Music also came naturally to Ben and he used the same determination and fire to write music as he did for athletics.
One of the songs Ben wrote was called “The Girl with Zero Flaws,” which he performed as a senior during the Downers Grove North talent show.
“He brought down the house and you can hear it at the end of the song,” Silver said.
At the end of the day, people really loved Ben. They loved him as a human being. Teachers came to his life celebration. Neighbors came crying.
“He touched so many people’s lives. Nobody could even believe that this could have happened,” Silver said. “But schizophrenia is a deadly, deadly illness.”
To remember and honor Ben, the family plans on hosting a run called Ben’s Memorial Mile, which will take place every summer and they plan to start the Ben Silver Memorial Fund to research mental illness and to find a way to have more effective mental illness care.
Surviving Ben is his mother Jamie, his father Paul and his brother Aaron.
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Why do we chant Nam-myoho-renge-kyo, and what makes this practice different than any other form of Buddhism?
1. The goal of this practice is RESULTS, also called actual proof, or benefits. In other words - you get what you chant for- or something better - as long as you do not give up.
2. In this practice, each person is a Buddha and possesses the entire power of the universe within their own lives. This is the awakening that the original Buddha experienced under the Bodhi tree.
We all possess the potential for bringing forth our own Buddhahood (happiness and strength) through chanting Nam-myoho-renge-kyo, right now, in this lifetime ~ without having to focus on making other changes in our lives. 3. We have a Living Mentor ~ Daisaku Ikeda is the President of the Soka Gakkai International. I write about him often. Several of the posts last week were on the mentor and disciple relationship. Daisaku Ikeda is an extraordinary human being that we connect with through his writings, his speeches, his actions and through our own hearts.
4.There are no lifestyle, diets, rules of behavior or “paths” to memorize or carefully trod. There is the keen awareness that life operates under the strict law of cause and effect, and at each moment WE are creating our lives, but most of us knew that already!
5. Desire is not the enemy. Your desires lead you to chant...when you chant you change your karma. Each person chants for their desires from their heart. Alleviation of desire is not the goal of this practice. Neither is mindlessness. We focus when we chant.
6. There are no clergy, no robes and no temples. YOU have direct access to the power of the universe, your own Buddha power within. No intermediaries are needed. We SGI members practice together because we grow and learn together. There are SGI (Soka Gakkai - Value Creating Organization) community centers, and many smaller meetings are held in people’s homes. We are all normal people in the world living extraordinarily happy lives.
7. We are changing our karma every time we chant. We can change our karma. Karma is not immutable. Suffering is not "Noble", but it is part of life. The goal of chanting is HAPPINESS, not to learn to be better sufferers.
8. We do not chant “to” anything outside of us. There is no Higher Power in this practice. When we are chanting we access our own wisdom and power as a the Buddha, or awakened one. We are chanting to our own lives.
9. The main practice is reciting the words Nam-myoho-renge-kyo over and over and over. Everyone on earth recites the same phrase. It means: "I fuse my life with the mystic (unfathomable) law of cause and effect through sound vibration"
10. The SGI does not discriminate for any reason. All people...ALL people have the right to access the Mystic Law within their own lives. We are all Buddhas. 11. There is no guilt, there is only the awareness of the law of cause and effect. 12. You do not need to convert to try this practice. Anyone can chant Nam-myoho-renge-kyo regardless of religion. Test it. See how you feel, and watch what happens. When you see the results, you want to learn more...and you increase results and happiness as you go.
And it's easy to start chanting. You can start with only 5 minutes in the morning and 5 in the evening, and see results. If you click on the SGI Portal link to the right you can find members in your area. Jamie Lee Silver ~ chantforhappiness@gmail.com
Once again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for all your letters, emails, cards and notes. You are so kind, and you warm my heart. Today, I'm here at Riva's Restaurant in Navy Pier in Chicago to meet a friend from out of town. My computer is almost out of charge. Today my friend and I will take a boat ride. The last time I was out on Lake Michigan it was with my Ben. Life has not quite gotten back to normal, or the "new normal" as we are saying, but I'm more determined than ever to have my life, and Ben's life make a difference. I already feel it happening, and it will be my ongoing determination. I know that life is eternal, and I know that all our lives make an incredible difference. You know, I was born on the 22nd, September 22nd, and 22 has always been my lucky number. Ben entered his next journey on the 2nd of July at the age of 22. How about that? And his life has already made a huge difference. Soon I will be able to post his entire life ceremony for those of you who missed it, and want to be a part of it.
He brought over 700 people together in the celebration of his life ~ making new memories, celebrating our community and joining together to honor an excellent human being. Already he is continuing to make an impact. Both yesterday and today I gave my "Growing older, Bolder, BETTER" speeches and will start full time back to work tomorrow. It makes me so happy to give these speeches that change people's lives. I will get one of them up on here for you as well. For now, I want to share some poetry with you that meant a lot to Ben. I found this in his writings from around 6th grade: I Want an Adventure I want and adventure I say to myself. I want to walk miles Without any stop. I want to climb trees And see all that's about. I want to set out Either north or south. I want to shout On the top of a ridge I am Free I am Free And whisper among the trees. I see all, but no one sees me. By Benjamin Lee Silver Thank you for sharing this journey with me! Jamie Lee Silver 17w702 Butterfield #104 Oakbrook Terrace, Il 60181
Thank you so much for all your emails and letters. It is wonderful to receive real mail from real people and not just bills! My address is at the bottom of this post.
My dear friend Joy read this poem at Ben's Life Ceremony. She said he'd written it himself, through her pen, that very day: Joyously ~ Forever On What was missing was the rock, A place for me to stand. A place for me to look Over the vast land. But I was sucked down to the bottom Of a canyon steep and dry I saw dark chamber walls As I gazed up at the sky. I could hear all of you calling "Ben, Ben, come on." But the echoes tore my ears to shreds As my hope was all but gone. I was locked up in a cage And I caught a glimpse of light My heart opened up a bit And I actually felt just right. Now in endless open space The bars and dark are gone. All that lies is endless plains And the horizon - rising sun. The chains broke off My heart did sing. The lightness finally joy did bring. I run like wind. I write my songs. I compose poems All day long. I sprinkle smiles on Mom and Dad. Aaron too, And the clan. My sparkly eyes see broken hearts But live on Yes, you can. I'll show you how For blessed with light I'm with you anytime Day and night. I'll touch you Hug You Sing you songs All while I run Joyously Forever on
We are Live Streaming Ben Silver's Ceremonies Tomorrow July 12, 2015 Please join us as we celebrate Ben's life. Times are USA central standard time. We will then post permanently on Youtube. Below is the link and time for each ceremony: http://www.ustream.tv/channel/chant-for-happiness
By Jamie Lee Silver of ChantforHappiness.com - Not an official SGI site
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The literal translation is:
"I fuse my life
with the mystic law of cause and effect
through sound vibration (or sutra)."
It is the title of the Lotus Sutra, the Buddha's highest teaching that declares that ALL people possess the Buddha Nature...all people ARE Buddhas...and we can access this nature by calling it forth in our lives using this phrase.
Being a Buddha - is tapping the river of life that runs through ALL life - summoning the mystic law by realizing we ARE the Mystic Law. We not only chant Nam-myoho-renge-kyo ~ we ARE Nam-myoho-renge-kyo ~the Mystic Law.
I like to think of it as "I am one with the rhythm of all life." It is the rhythm that exists within all of life...the reason for the turning of the tides...the reason for the seasons...the atoms that exist within every single cell...from an elephant to a spec of dust...to the cells in our hearts and minds. Everything possesses this connectedness...this rhythm. It is all encompassing and contains the wisdom and energy of all of life itself...the whole universe. When we chant Nam-myoho-renge-kyo we tap into that energy and access it for our lives...directed towards our desires and for the fulfillment of happiness for all. In this practice, it's okay to have desires. More than okay! We don't have to alleviate them. Desires make us who we are and lead us to chant. When we chant we change the internal life within our lives. We change the core and fiber of our lives. We change our karma. And when we make that internal change, our ENVIRONMENT (meaning everything that is not within our own skin, our jobs, our relationships, our sense of self, everything we experience and think) ALL of that changes to reflect our internal change. We call this "Human Revolution." When we chant we harness the energy that is our birthright. And we chant twice a day, every single day, to get and keep our lives in rhythm. When we are in rhythm we are in the right place at the right time... to find out about and get the job...or to meet the man of our dreams...or to protect our child from danger. When we are in rhythm life isn't so much of a struggle as it is a joy...we see the beauty in everything and we feel our lives overflowing with appreciation. We chant for something and get it or something better. We get access to internal happiness and strength that cannot be blown away by any event or obstacles. In fact we view obstacles themselves as benefits, as strange as that may sound....because obstacles make us chant more, and when we chant more we draw even higher life conditions and deeper satisfaction into our lives. What can we chant FOR? Anything. We chant for others, we chant for our planet, our countries, and ouselves. We can chant for whatever our desire may be...even if it might not be the "right" desire for us. In the act of chanting, we will change our karma and our desires themselves will naturally begin to shift. We will open our lives to the deeper wisdom within...the deeper yearning, the REAL desires that we have forgotten or given up on. We will grow. We will prosper and we will blossom. We will gain the wisdom of the right action to take - because ACTION springs from wisdom. The challenge is...we need to DO it. We have to chant to bring all this rhythm and harmony out. And that's why we practice together as an organization, the SGI, The Soka Gakkai, our fellowship of friends who support each other, chant for each other, and create a new Soka family for each practitioner. We are so fortunate. I hear from people all over the world, and some have strong SGI groups in their towns and others are completely alone. I love that we can connect through the power of the internet. From the moment I began chanting almost 30 years ago I have had the deep desire to share this practice, this practice that WORKS, with everyone who is looking for the real, practical means of creating happiness and results in their lives. We are in this life together...sharing our challenges and our successes. If you are not yet connected to the SGI please go to sgi-usa.com and find your local members. You will be so glad you did. Some Powerful Quotes from Daisaku Ikeda: THIS moment, this instant, is important, not some unknown time in the future. Today, this very day is what matters. You must put your whole being into the time that exists now. For future victory rests in the present moment.
BUDDHISM holds that everything is in a constant state of flux. Thus, the question is whether we are to accept change passively and be swept away by it, or whether we are to take the lead and create positive changes on our own initiative. While conservatism and self-protection might be likened to winter, night and death, the spirit of pioneering and attempting to realize the ideals evokes the images of spring, morning and birth.
DO gongyo and chant daimoku with a fresh spirit. And, filled with renewed vitality,
Sorry there's no picture. Aaron's using my computer to make a video and my computer is not happy about that!
Aaron and I have been staying together for this week. A good friend took him to a baseball game on Tuesday. He looked around and thought "Every single one of these people is carrying a loved one who passed away with them here today. I am not alone in my grief. They got through it. So will I"
Coping with Loss
by Daisaku Ikeda
The impermanence of life is an inescapable fact. Yet while it is one thing to know, in theory, that each moment of your life may be the last, it’s much harder to actually live and act, on a practical level, based on that belief. Most of us tend to imagine that there will always be another chance to meet and talk with our friends or relatives again, so it doesn’t matter if a few things go unsaid.
But whenever I meet someone, I try to extend myself to them to the utmost, for that may be our last encounter. I never leave room for regret, aiming to concentrate my whole being in each moment.
Buddhism identifies the pain of parting from one’s loved ones as one of life’s inevitable sufferings. It is certainly true that we cannot avoid experiencing the sadness of separation in this life.
Shakyamuni, the Buddha who lived in India over 2,000 years ago, lost his mother when he was just one week old. As he grew up, he always wondered, “Why did my mother die? Where did she go? Where can I go to meet her? What is this thing ‘death’ that has robbed me of my mother? What, after all, is life?”
His sorrow at the loss of his mother became a powerful driving force which enabled him to have deep compassion for others and to seek the truth of life.
One day he met a woman whose child had died; she was wandering about in a grief-stricken daze with the tiny body clutched to hers. “Please give me some medicine to save my baby,” she begged Shakyamuni, her eyes red with tears.
He knew the child was past saving, but wanted somehow to encourage her. He told her to fetch some poppy seeds so he could make medicine, but only to collect poppy seeds from families which had never known bereavement.
The woman hurried off into town and called on every household. But although many had poppy seeds, there was not a single house in which there had never been a death. The distraught mother gradually came to realize that every family lived with the sadness of lost loved ones quietly concealed somewhere in their hearts. Through this experience she realized she was not alone in her feelings of grief.
At the starting line of the state Cross Country Meet
Ben is the first in a white jersey from the left
"An awareness and understanding of death raises our state of life. When we are cognizant of the reality and inevitability of death we begin to seek the eternal, and become determined to make the most valuable use of each moment of life."
Daisaku Ikeda from Ikedaquotes.org
Everything is coming together for an inspiring tribute to Ben's life on Sunday. And you can be there! We are doing a live web simulcast! We are going to have it real-time on the web so we'll let you know how you can actually be there for the ceremony. The Buddhist Ceremony will take place at 10:00 Central Standard Time, and his Life Celebration will be at 1:00 the same day, Sunday, July 12th. Both will have music, video and stories of Ben's Life. We are planning to memorialize Ben's Victorious Spirit in a number of ways. We will have a bench and tree in the park right by where we lived. Before we moved from San Francisco to Chicago I chanted for a park in walking distance - where no one had to cross the street - and got it - Whitlock Park in Downers Grove. This park has a running path Aaron and Ben spent many hours running on - and I walked this path over and over. We are also talking about having the Ben Silver Memorial Mile. Every summer this running community (hundreds of young men and women and their families) will come together and run or walk for a mile on the High School track and then share some time in the American Legion Hall. This is where the team met for a joyous Cross Country Team Banquet every year. Prior to this, there has been no yearly reunion, and Ben's life will change this. We are also looking into other ways to memorialize his great spirit. Send me your ideas! Ever since he died, one week ago today, I have thrown open my doors and have had a constant stream of visitors to hug all of us, and to tell us their stories about Ben. One coach said he coached seven Olympic athletes, and NONE had the drive and energy Ben did. Ben ran in the state cross country championship three times, more than any athlete at the High School (that's what we understand to be true). The point is he "ATTACKED" every course as if it were the last race he would ever run. People I'd never met used to come up to me at races and ask "Are you Ben Silver's Mom? I came out here today just to watch him run. There's something about watching Ben Silver run. It's so compelling." I think it's because he went full out. He gave every race his all. And he gave his other endeavors his all as well. His poems...his songwriting...his acting when he was younger. I posted the original song he performed before a live audience the other day. I know the sound quality is not good. I can post the words if you'd like. They are actually hilarious. I am keeping my spirit strong through Daimoku. I have not given up one ounce of courage, conviction and strength. Through my sweet boy's death, I am determined to use my life force more fully for the happiness of all. I am fighting for kosen-rufu (a world of respect for all) with all my might. I am determined that no family should ever have to suffer what we've been through these last few years with Ben's illness. Somehow we must find a cure for Schizophrenia. And change the way it is treated. My mission for spreading the word about this incredible Buddhist practice burns more deeply in my heart. Thank you for sharing this blog with others. I will continue using my life to inspire, as I know you are all doing as well!
Right now Aaron is using my computer to make a video for Ben so it is difficult to answer emails, thank you for your patience! You can send written notes, etc., to Jamie Lee Silver at 17w702 Butterfield apt. #104, Oak Brook Terrace, IL 60181 I am chanting for you ALL to be inspired, more inspired than ever through Ben's courageous life!
