This post is in answer to a question I got from a reader yesterday.
She asked if I ever feel despair, and what do I do when I sink into that feeling?
And yes, even Buddhas (like you and I), who have been chanting for many years still get occasional moments of despair! Every time I feel a moment of sadness I think of all of you, and my district members, and I make a new VOW to overcome my karma (and propensity toward depression) once and for all by ripping it out at the roots. This is Human Revolution...never giving up. I must pave the way for others, just as you are paving the way for others through every one of your fresh determinations.
Welcome to the new Era for Kosen Rufu. Some of you made your goals for November 18th, others are still chanting for the ourcome you desire.
As Sensei says, the important thing is to keep chanting.
There are several steps I recommend for when you are battling to WIN over your own despair ~
1. Chant
2. Call someone who encourages you
and read Sensei's writings.
3. Make a fresh determination and a new vow
4. Chant again and win!
I will pass along some wise words from my dear friend Kate who overcame her lifelong depression:
She says that when you are making huge causes for Kosen Rufu it is natural to get obstacles in the form of emotions, and that once again your karma has shown itself to you anew so that you can once again determine to root it out forever.
She also said at the core of our suffering is the fact that many aspects of our environment reflect our own deep seated feelings of self doubt and of not being good enough...but our preseverance will change this.
She said our environment does not yet truly reflect the amazing and wonderfully shining, worthy people we are. And she attributes that to our deep seated doubts somewhere in our lives. (karma, of course).
We have been suffering over some of the same things for our entire lives, haven't we? She said
Human Revolution is HARD
because you have to break the ties
to your own unhappiness.
Those grooves are familiar, and hard to break.
The following is a PowerPrayer...some powerful words to keep in mind from time to time while you are chanting Nam-myoho-renge-kyo...a suggested attitude to WIN!
Out of Kate's wise words I wrote this
PowerPrayer to Defeat Despair:
Every day I love and appreciate myself more and more.
I see myself for the noble, brilliant Buddha I am!
I DEMAND that all my circumstances in life
appreciate me!
I DEMAND that my environment
reflect who I really am,
not my fears or doubts of who I am.
I DEMAND that I have the courage
to do Human Revolution
and to FOREVER break
those ties to my own unhappiness.
I am determined to stop making causes
that bring me pain!
I am determined to make causes
that bring me happiness!
Not just for me, but for everyone!
I MUST succeed
LIFE
No matter what!
I choose to be happy!
I choose happiness now!
I see myself for the noble, brilliant Buddha I am!
I DEMAND that all my circumstances in life
appreciate me!
I DEMAND that my environment
reflect who I really am,
not my fears or doubts of who I am.
I DEMAND that I have the courage
to do Human Revolution
and to FOREVER break
those ties to my own unhappiness.
I am determined to stop making causes
that bring me pain!
I am determined to make causes
that bring me happiness!
Not just for me, but for everyone!
I MUST succeed
LIFE
No matter what!
I choose to be happy!
I choose happiness now!