Wonderful Benefit! A Poem from my son Ben

My wonderful son is about to turn twenty...and is going through a transformation in how he sees his life...and how he sees his place in life. I've posted about my sons before...Aaron and Ben. I have adored every moment of being their mother. I have loved playing with them, chanting with them, watching them run, and encouraging them with all my heart. I raised my sons as Buddhists...teaching them to chant for everything...to end bad dreams, to solve relationship problems, to stop bullies. We have chanted together since they were babies. I believe in them...I believe in their happiness and their hearts! Here is Ben's heartfelt poem he gave to me on last week in honor of my birthday in September. Oh thank you Ben!!

Mother Oh Mother

I've been wandering around 

Wasting my youth in a stupor

A sheet of incomplete understanding was pulled over my eyes

Only to disguise

What I could not see

Always alone and always right

I searched and searched for people to help legitimize

My feelings of knowing everything

Though I could not see, this was my irrational belief 

I judged and I judged

And I judged the judgers who judged me

I ignored those loving souls

By thinking they were more people that I had to beat

I ignored those around me 

Who loved me 

Despite me closing them off

And mother oh mother I ignored you most of all

I thought I was so separate

In a different world that was untouchable

But now that our worlds have collided I see I am no different at all

Just another soul, searching, sometimes loitering

I thought I had to figure everything out myself

Mother oh mother 

You've always been so warm

You welcomed me to this world 

To you I was a whole world in your arms

You've understood my journey from the very beginning

You created a self-fulfilling prophecy inside of me

You held me so tight that the world was alright

You told me you always knew that I was going to be fine

That despite my mind,

I know I will always have your love

Despite my foolishness you know I am somewhere

Maybe too far away and ignorant at the moment

But you stuck around and waited patiently guiding me from above 

Swooping and watching and loving like a dove

You fed me and clothed me, and made sure I was healthy

In a time where I was too defiant to realize you were always showing your love for me

I thought I was a bad child

But you were too smart

You helped me discover 

That I had a great big heart

You instilled in me a love

As selflessly as anyone can do anything

You opened my eyes to the amazing world of spiritualism

All in all when I look back I picture

That I was a little pup and you were so tender

And that little pup grew an ego, 

Some self-righteousness, insecurities and an agenda,

But when he finally yawned and stretched out his paws,
He awoke to this world sure of nothing but your love.

Mother, oh mother I love you with all my heart
I could cry at how beautiful a person you are.