As you can imagine, it's an interesting time for me, the first mother's day since Ben began his next journey. Although he is here with me in spirit, and continues to write to me constantly through my own hand, he is my "Forever Ben" now, and my life as a mother is changed.
Yesterday I chanted for an hour with my friend Nina. It had been a while since I chanted that long, and it felt like a really long time to chant! It's so interesting how sometimes time flies...and other times it stands still. But I had to chant with as much concentration as possible so I could face mother's day today. I did not look away from the Gohonzon for more than a few seconds. Focused concentration...chanting for Kosen Rufu to flow endlessly through me...to alleviate my fear...to feel the beautiful flow of my life every moment...
And last night I did EFT Tapping with my new friend Betsy via Skype so I could be calm today. (Please write me at chantforhappiness@gmail.com if you want to learn about having a session with me) Tapping is so fascinating...it's like acupuncture without needles. Great for clearing emotion.
So today Aaron and I spent the day in the sun making golden memories. We visited the Bahai Temple in Wilmette, one of the most beautiful buildings in the world. I wrote about this building a year ago when Ben and I went there. This time Aaron and I were making new memories. And we went to the beach.
I hope you all honored yourselves, your Mothers and your families with love this Mother's Day!
Nam-myoho-rnege-kyo!
You are always so honest about your feeling Jamie . So inspiring
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