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Have you ever felt like you were stopped at every turn? That, somehow there were thick walls between you and everything you want? Have you ever been making positive causes, chanting, and still the walls getting higher and higher?
I have felt walled in lately - and I am in the process of breaking through - I know it. I know there's a bright expanse on the other side of these walls!
Here's how I am turning these walls into tiny little pebbles that I will just step over.
This week I made a call to one of my treasured friends in faith, and she had some wise words for me.
She said that when she was experiencing walls, she learned that there was something deep in her life, and in her character...at the very depths of her human revolution that needed to change. She asked me some questions and I could clearly see the action I needed to take, and the Daimoku I needed to chant.
I went to the Gohonzon and chanted to learn what I needed to change. Some things came to mind...my tendency to get defensive in the face of criticism, and the need to develop the skill of understanding the other person's point of view and not letting my emotions overrun my brain. In front of the Gohonzon I chanted with all my heart to have the courage to see my shortcomings...and the courage to change them.
As James Hermann in Chicago once said: "We don't chant so we can say "That's just the way I am." We chant to CHANGE what we see needs to be changed!
So, for the past few days, I've been chanting three hours a day and I am on the verge of a huge breakthrough! I know this because three of my good friends are coming to the meeting on Tuesday when I will be giving my experience.
I also uncovered something important about my finances and made two new dear friends. Treasures of the heart!
It's not complete yet, but I'll tell you all about it when it's done!
Today I fly off for Ben's Memorial Mile! It will be Saturday the 17th of June at Downers Grove North Illinois High School's outdoor track at 5:00. Join us if you can! Here's the link: Bensmemorialmile.com.
This week I'll see my whole family and around 500 wonderful friends in Downers Grove. Hope for the Day, National Alliance of Mental Illness, Your Story Counseling and the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention will all have booths. There are children's events and a costume mile, great music, laughter, cheers and fun. Al Carius, the coach of the century will be speaking.
It's hard to believe it has been almost two years since my precious boy became eternal!
I can hardly breathe I'm so excited! Nam-myoho-renge-kyo!
